I have come to hate getting the mail. As an adult....it is just full of bills and bills...some junk mail...and then bills. Blah! Do you ever feel like you just can't catch a break?
The doctor's bills have started rolling in. It is like they give you a little bit of time to mourn and then BAM!!! Reality sinks in! I just broke down yesterday because I feel like I am drowning in debt and I have nothing to show for it, except a stack of cards and a beautiful teeny tiny footprint. It makes you feel so empty.
Imagine buying your most favorite pair of shoes...one you can't afford but you want so badly. Imagine staring at them, drooling over them, praying for them....and then finally buying them! How excited are you? Such a great feeling! And then they get stolen and you can do NOTHING about it.
I know, and have absolutely no doubts, that God will provide for me and my family. It is just money. The reality of it all is just plain overwhelming sometimes.