Friday, July 23, 2010

Whatever You're Doing

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly


Music moves me....I have said it a millions times! I have heard this specific song so many times, so many that I know every word....I know almost every word to every song that plays on my radio station moves me.

Hearing this today moved me to tears....I have finally gotten to a place where I am not crying every time I start talking....only when I get a really great hug. I just can't help it. But these were effortless tears. It is amazing when you open yourself up to listen, the things you hear.

Over the last couple days, I have had a lot of time to talk, to listen, to rest, to cry, to think.

Thinking brought me back to about 1 1/2 years ago. I was living in Gulf Shores, newly married but ready to start trying to start our family. My sister in law told me about this blog that I had to read. It was a story of a woman; a truly beautiful, Godly woman, who was going to have to say goodbye to her daughter. I am sure most of you have read this blog, Bring the Rain. It was a time in my life that I was low in my faith. This woman was AMAZING to me. What a strong, beautiful woman. I read her blog as if it was the best book I had ever read....I told my family to pray for her family and Audrey. I sat in front of my computer everyday until I was done....sobbing...praying....sitting in disbelief at the strength, yet honesty of this woman. I admired her...I still do.
Did God lead me to her? Did God want me to read this woman's beautiful story of faith to help me grow in my own faith? Did God use her and her crushing situation to bring me closer to Him? Did God have a greater plan in this whole situation that I didn't realize at the time?

Did he start preparing me then for now?

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life. Something Heavenly

Sanctus Real - Whatever Your Doing

1 comment:

Hollyhand House said...

I just want you to know that you are an AMAZING person and an inspiration to me in so many ways! I love you so much and your ALWAYS in my prayers!!